Living Life One Moment at a Time

Not to long ago I sent the email I had hope to never send.  Today, I received a response.  It wasn’t at all what I expected but what I had hoped it would be.  It wasn’t filled with “I’m leaving her for you” because, well, that can’t happen.  Anyway, we were able to finally talk about the things we were never able to discuss previously.  This is mostly in part to both of us finally being sober enough to be rational.  I finally came to understand that life has dealt the both of us a pretty shitty hand and long distance relationships can’t last when you don’t have the means to see one another.  It was too much to ask him to wait like it is too much to ask me to wait.  You can’t sit on the sideline watching life go by so he forced himself back out into the world.  I’ve tried it but found that no one lives up to him.  

He did manage to tell me that he will be in Charlotte next Friday for an interview and for one of my company’s Black History Month celebrations.  He’s only going to be there for one night and he wants to have dinner with me.  It could end up in disaster considering last time but it would be amazing to see him one more time.  I won’t be able to avoid his presence at the company gathering but my head is telling me it’s a bad idea.  I don’t know what to do about him.  This can’t end well.